Impulse of the creative process

07/21/2022

My initial impulse when thinking about writing an essay is to get meta.

We're thinking all the time. But do we regard our thoughts highly or try to disregard the "uninteresting" parts of ourselves. We face writer's block because we don't let the "uninteresting" parts flow into something that becomes interesting.

What I've started to notice is that the stuckness energy is a sign for release.

If there's something bothering me then it wants to be expressed.

It becomes interesting through play. I can play with the energy of whatever I'm avoiding and find out the gem that's hidden inside. Often, the deepest parts of self-knowledge come from the places hidden from us.

Our shadow is the source of our growth if we can integrate it.

I've been needing inspiration recently.

The source of my recent inspiration has come from what I've accomplished in the past. It comes from acknowledging the magic of what has already occurred in my life. It is the belief of our divine power to attract what we want into our lives.

Gratitude is the practice that brings out this magic.

I'm usually downplaying my own accomplishments to my own detriment.

I'm learning how to generate the positive inner self-talk to build up my self-esteem. The unshakeable belief and knowing in myself that what I have to offer and my gifts are powerful. To stand out instead of shy away to the opportunities that our lives constantly have to offer.

The shadow of my hurt inner child is waiting to blossom into the confident kid without the concept of shame or guilt or hurt.

So much of my journey into adulthood is unlearning the myths taught to me.

I'm learning to value the creative impulse, the curiosity I had as a kid, the questioning of how things worked. The role of the artist is not to produce products, but to find truth within reality. To share truth.

Artists access the inner child and follow the impulse until it is expressed out in the world.

One realization I had about my life is that technology is being created to express my vision.

Why did I have the curiosity to explore new technologies in university? Because I knew that what was available to me at the time was not sufficient for me to express my creativity. I explored 3D printing, virtual reality / augmented reality, artificial intelligence, and created or joined organizations to explore these technologies.

As an artist I knew that these technologies would be vital to my future visions that I would bring into the world.

I want to create music with my words, images through my speech, and games with my mind.

As I start to explore AI art, I can see the potential of generating worlds with my words alone. Speaking into existence that which has not existed before. In seconds.

One question I ask is how does everything connect?

Leonardo DaVinci looks at the connection between all things. Ultimately what things reduce down to is vibrations and frequency, waves. Music, speech, particles, brainwaves.

With technology we can reveal a world that we were able to sense but could not see with our eyes.

The truth is... we are constantly creating the reality around us.

We're aligning with the frequencies of the things we desire and bringing them into our field.

The universe always gives you what you want. Therefore it is important to be very specific. If you want to meet someone new to date, make sure you specify beforehand that she is available.

Looking at our past experiences, we can notice patterns of the types of people and situations we are attracting into our lives.

We are magnets for ideas and the vessel to carry them into being.

We don't own our ideas, ideas choose us. Have you noticed how multiple people can have the same idea across history? When an idea chooses you, are you prepared to bring it into existence?

In my own life, I've noticed the same ideas repeating over and over again.

What repeats is often important to our core being.

In my life, transformation is a recurring theme. In my short amount of time on Earth, I've gone through more transformations than most people. I seem to speed run transformation, letting my old self release and bringing in my new self.

I'm going through another transformation at this moment.

Transformation is characterized by a conscious realization of our shadows and our old emotions. Challenges enter our lives that we can choose to either make decisions that bring us through or to repeat old patterns. When we integrate our shadow, we feel more whole and complete.

Ultimately, the goal of transformation is to move into the feeling of wholeness and completeness.

The new butterfly feels that it is a whole and complete butterfly, not a caterpillar.

It doesn't think back to the time it was a caterpillar and curl up and get stuck, it moves on and flies and lives its life as a butterfly. Humans have a whole new set of cells every seven years. But sometimes people hold onto memories for decades, recreating them every single day.

We get stuck in recreating our old selves when we could be living as the whole and complete butterfly.

We are already in our whole and complete state of the butterfly when we start to perceive we are in a moment of transformation.

We feel the conflict of our inner emotions because we are attached to our old selves. Whether that is the feeling of comfort, of security, or of fear of the unknown, we attempt to preserve what is already leaving our lives. That old job we loved is already gone and we continue to go to it because we are afraid of what will happen when we actually take the step into our new life.

What would life look like if we actually stepped into our whole and complete self and into our new lives? Wonderful, magical, and aligned with who we actually are underneath all the old baggage.