One of the biggest lessons I'm integrating is the trust in the path I am taking in life.
Knowing that I am cared for and guided. Trusting that whatever support I need in any moment is going to enter my life. Following synchronicity.
Following our intuition requires us to let go of the preconceptions we have about the world.
I'm called into living a creative life, but what does that even mean?
For me, it means being able to spend my time focusing on what my soul calls me to create. It doesn't mean I don't work, but I have the flexibility to be able to follow the rabbithole of whatever interests I have. And ultimately sharing the results of the journeys and adventures I've taken to people who want to hear about them.
A creative life is a free life to explore universal truths.
It is scary to live with freedom.
Freedom doesn't come with guardrails. You have to create your own guardrails and constraints. Often the constraints that exist, only exist in your mind.
How do we create proper constraints so we don't get lost?
I don't want to be lost, I want faith that the path I'm taking is the right path for me.
The need for control is a part of our ego that protects us. It is helpful to us in survival situations. It's served me well in situations where I didn't have the necessary support networks available.
However, letting go of this need for control is part of my journey.
I'm at a place in my life where I feel like I don't need to be in control anymore.
I have protected myself to survive, but I must let go of control so I can thrive. Letting go of the constraints within my mind can unshackle me to explore freely. I know that the rewards are just over the unexplored areas of my path.
I want to let my curiosity guide me again.
Did I become less curious over time?
No, I think my curiosity has shifted inwards rather than seeking outwards for new information. I now understand that the keys to living with freedom comes from knowing myself deeply. I am letting my inner knowing guide me.
When I'm faced with situations that are out of alignment internally, I can choose a different outcome.
It took me a lot of pain and hurt to come to these lessons.
Every separation and every relationship taught me to love myself even more. It is the journey inward to realizing we are whole and complete that creates even more love for ourselves. We refers to all the parts of ourselves.
When we can love ourselves for who we are, there is complete trust in the direction we are going.
This doesn't mean that I cannot follow plans or use logic.
It means that I am using logic and planning in service to my heart and my intuition. It means letting myself play in the unknown and aligning with the energy of what I want. And then letting my logic and planning bring it to me by taking action.
Taking action is an important piece.
What am I currently excited about?
I'm excited about letting my throat chakra heal. Letting myself express my voice authentically. Realizing that people care about what I have to say.
I'm going through a group coaching program right now to unleash my voice.
Part of this transformation I'm currently going through is becoming comfortable posting my true self online.
The part of me from the past that feels shut down is holding on and trying to protect me. I am creating a space for that self to finally relax and to start to share his truth again. It is an act of re-parenting and re-generating.
I'm entering a new life where the past events that used to hold me back are not as significant anymore.
Part of healing is to reduce the intensity of past emotional trauma.
What can we imagine for our own future when we let go of the comments that someone may have made about us, or the pain we felt from someone taking something away from us. Imagining a future from our thriving state, instead of imagining a future from our surviving state, creates new realities for us to inhabit and live in.
Who we believe we are meant to be, determines what we bring into the world.
When I imagine the future, I imagine how I want to feel in the moment and to attach all five feelings to my imagination.
The sand in my toes, the emotions of being at an event, the sounds I'm hearing, the taste of the food, the joy of playing with others.
With my finances, I feel empowered, powerful, creative, excited, and playful.
With my intimate relationships, I feel loved, sexy, supported, cared for, playful and exploration.
One thing I'm learning to get better at is sharing my progress rather than just sharing my vision of the future. Showing people the transformations I've gone through and documenting my journey. I want to embody the emotions I'm feeling along the way.
It's easy to continue thinking about the future and getting stuck in the loops of emotional overwhelm. But when we settle on a vision for the future, we have to let the arrow fly, we can't keep holding onto the string.
So much of personal growth is not visible on the outside.
It covers an internal change of how we feel about ourselves. And for myself, I find that the emotions I'm transmuting are not even my own. There's generational change happening within me as I am moving into new territory and new experiences.
As internal change happens, my external world also shifts.
As I create more videos and content and write, I'll be able to see the shifts happening in my life more clearly.
When I went through a lot of change in the last 7-8 years of my life, the act of journaling allowed me to see the changes I went through. A lot of times my past self wasn't even recognizable. I went through changes every single month.
Who we are is not static, we are ever-changing and growing.